I remember on the other day, I was badly moody due to menstrual pain and discomfort. I kept whining and shouting to Ben "I want to be happy but I AM NOT HAPPY". Ben tried to please me in so many ways. I shouted so many times "I AM STILL NOT HAPPY" as everything he did, didn't working yet, some even annoy me. But he keep on trying until he finally managed to make me happy. I don't know how he did that. You know, it is not easy to make me happy while having bad period :))
Ikr. I should have not shout and whine. Buruk perangai :( Periods are ridiculous. I can become super lazy, but sometimes the other way around. I can be very grumpy, and suddenly glows in happy. Usually I can not wait to eat something that I think I MUST EAT, and it must be fulfilled by the day! If not, I can turn into a monster - a grumpy and fugly monster. These things can really affect people surrounding - especially Ben. And I hate that very, very much :(
Ben tolerates my nature well. I am about to cry looking back remembering every single things he has done solely to make me happy - makes me feel very lucky.....and grateful. I've been questioning myself what have I done right to deserve someone who is very nice to me. Then I remembered, I've been always prayed I'll found someone who will really stick with me during my worst and my best. So,
I am so, very happy :)
I am so, very happy :)
A little conversation with Ben that I never want to forget - we were talking about random topic like we usually do. During some idle time, I caught the boy looking at me, smiling. As I'm having my early days of menstruation, what Ben did actually gave me a slight of uncomfortable feeling. On the second time I caught him still looking at me, I asked:
- Me: Tengok apa? Kenapa tengok aku macam tu?!
- Ben replied: I'm looking at my princess.
Awh, melts! I do not know if he was just randomly says that because he was not that type! So as I do not want to perasan lebih, I respond him with only a smile like those lovely words he said do not matter to me. Tapi tuhan saja lah yang tahu betapa happyy berbunga cinta terus hati ni bila the boy call me what? His princess!
Girls liked that. Well at least, me.
No folks. On that day, I did not look like a princess. I look very serabai one. But that's what makes me very happy. Someone finally see a princess in serabai me.
I love you Ben, so much.