Thursday, July 31, 2014

raya with ex-schoolmates

My second and third Eid were surrounded by lovely funny allies. Thank you for bringing so many belly laughter to my home and others (too), friends. I enjoy raya with all of you crazy pals!


Monday, July 28, 2014

wishing you selamat hari raya aidilfitri 1435 hijrah

-- much love, me 

Dear my mummy and my daddy,
my grandparents, aunties, uncles, and the kids,
ex-classmates, ex-schoolmates, teachers and friends,
Ben and the whole family,

I wish everyone would have a rejoicing and meaningful raya that would bring joy to our heart and home. I wish we all happiness, may we'd be blessed with peace by forgiving others with sincerity, and may Allah ease the suffering of our muslim sisters and brothers all around the globe. I seek for forgiveness and I expect nothing in return other than hoping everyone would find and feel the happiness on this happy day, and always, especially for those people who I really love.

 Happy Eid Ul Fitr al mubarak, everyone. Selamat hari raya aidilfitri, maaf zahir dan batin 

Friday, July 25, 2014

we all need the one who can be true to you

"Bukan seorang yang romantik"

Bukan seorang yang romantic is one of the things that Ben told me about him in the early weeks. I remember at the beginning of relationship, Ben and I respectively act very macho, polite and cool. We talked more about serious things, life, views and discussing about each other perspectives because he is really not that romantic LOL. The way how he talks makes me think that he was such a very serious person which is very contrary to me lah, so I thought I might die boring.

Aku kan jiwang LOL, but I actually liked that.

I like to know that I have someone who is way more matured than me. Ben is a very forward-thinker person I have ever met. He loves to think about so many things lah and future too. He constantly thinks and talks about what obstacles or problems that might hit in between in life, and say we must be prepared for everything, practically asked me to join the club; to be a well prepared person on earth everr! Okay, okay baby.

And I love I found out that, he is actually so sweet.

I love how he texts me first and checks me up every night. I love to hear him playing the guitar while singing a song for me. The way how he looks in my eyes makes my heart melted over and over again. And what I really love is he gave me attention without me asking. And now day by day, our conversation is getting fun. The child in him finally started to show and I liked that! You know finally to see someone yang serius rupanya gila juga.

Recently Ben sang a song for me, Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold which is not really related to us except yes we are much too far way now. So basically Ben sang the song to express his hope that God would hold me when he is not around? That is so sweet hahaha.

"We all need the one who can be true to you"

I am glad it was me, and YOU.

Ben this is you without neck hahaha!

Within this month, I wrote down some of the sweetest and funny things that Ben said to me. I did this at first because I have nothing to do but then I found it was hilarious to recall back some of the things. I shorten, these are the ten things that he said to me.

1. I love you so "muchi-muchi". 
yes he created that so "muchi-muchi" things. so annoying yet so cutee kan hahaha.

2. sayang, I really miss you. 
I miss you too!

3. always think positive. 
for emotional person like me? ermm okay baby, okay hahaha.

4. aku mau jadi Super Saiya. 

5. you are the only one I want.
awwh, so selfish, and sexy!

6. I want to own a transformer.
I am a proud girl to date a very ambitious boy.

7. sayang, aku baru gunting rambut. handsome kah?
a conversation during video call.

8. I am very happy with you.
I put this here because I don't want to forget that you are once very happy with me.

9. you are so cute.
thank you. you are so sweet.

10. mata aku seksi kan yank?
hahaha this boy of mine. I've just got to say yes.

Yes because, I love that boy so, so much ;)

I love the way how the boy and I keep each other updated during this semester break through any existing social apps. It is just feel so good to know the person that you love are always thinking about you too and stay connected! I can't wait to see you in real, Ben. I miss you more than I can say.

Happy monthsary. I love you!

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

life update

{not latest photo btw}
Hey you guys. I just suddenly feel the urge to write today and talk about random things. 

These few days I hit my sack early but then woke up too early (too). So, I feel very tired during the day because of not getting enough sleep. Also, I have a slight fever almost every night but during the day okay jak nda demam langsung pun.

Gila not? Haihhhh.

Remember at my previous post I said I got like four piles of dirty clothes that need to be done? Well there are actually five piles all together. I have washed them all last week. It took me two days to get all done. Washing, drying, folding, hanging, and put some of them into the luggage. I feel great because doing laundry is really not my favorite.

How was your Eid preparation? Mine is moving very slow. The ceiling of my house is now being renovated so I can't even arrange the sofa and do some cleaning because house is filled with various of tools, barrels of paint, and white dust everywhere. Its been three days since last Monday. I hope the renovating and repairing work will soon be done. I miss hang in the hall watching TV, without inhaling white dust of course.

Frankly I was very uninspired to live these days. You know those day - you  feel like you don't want to live anymore? Haihhhh. But I have always found the reasons to continue living in my parents, grandparents, family, my cats, and my boyfriend. They gave me reasons to continue living. Love them sooo much!! 

I hate how people could take the person they love for granted. I hate people who favor their friends more than their family and lover. Just because your family and lover would always there for you and forgive you for whatever you did to them doesn't mean you can take them for granted.

I believe there is a way how to appreciate our friends, and it is a must to appreciate every single things that happen in friendship. But people just tend to forget how to appreciate and tend to hurt the people they say they love. People should learn how to appreciate everyone especially the people that they should really appreciate, dammit. Learn it from the books if necessary. 

My talk is getting longer and serious. I stop now. Happy Eid in advance, everyone!

Thursday, July 10, 2014

how to be organized

Yesterday when I woke up in the morning I knew I have so many house chores to do. "Today must be a very productive day!" I say. But lately those type of day don’t happen often lah because I'm still in my holiday mood(?), oh you know. 

I got like four piles of laundry that need to be done but it rained earlier in the morning, so cold lah haih! I don’t even want to touch the water. But it doesn't matter jugak lah. I still can survive another one month without doing any laundry. I have so many clothes FTW!! So I thought I will just let the piles, untouched. 

Ah! But its kinda scary to waste an entire day without doing nothing and time just passes by. Last Monday when I just woke up, I found out my mother was not around. At night, I asked my mother where she had gone during the day. She answered, "to school lah?" (my mom is a teacher). Seriously, I don't even remember what day is today!

Today after I spent some minutes talking to my cats (bahaha), I decided to tackle a project or two. In a corner of my room, there is a medium sized of wooden shelves which used to be my bookshelf. But now, the bookshelf  was loaded with files, magazines and so many nonsense things.

So many stuff and trash (I must say).

I don’t have dressing table here in my room (how about you?). But of course we do need a table to put our grooming items on. So basically, the shelf is where I put mine.

I kept the items that I often use and put away the ones that I rarely or never use. I threw some of them, too. I guess I need to stop buying nonsense things and keep only what I need. More same nonsense stuff more clutter. Like why bought new bottle or new compact powder if you already have one? Just for sake the new one looks way more cuteee-r? Moreover I don't have enough space to keep all the stuff organized.

Why lah I just realize it now? Haih, sigh.

Glad to see everything I REALLY NEED is in place. 

Today I learned ;

  1. To be organized, only keep necessary things.
  2. To be organized, only buy necessary things. Always think twice! And more!
  3. To be organized, throw trash into the trash. Why keep them in the shelves Nanaa?
  4. I don't have to buy a new file within 10 years from now. I found that I have 16 empty files.
  5. Buying nonsense things & finally throwing them into the trash can is like throwing your money, too.

Such a waste.

Monday, July 07, 2014

not to little to late to

{Me and my mummy}

Wishing all muslim sisters and brothers happy ramadhan kareem! May our fasts be accepted, prayers be answered, and may Allah shower ramadhan's blessing on all of us. 


For friends that been bomb-ed and being restricted to fast in another country that I do not want to quote, I really don't know where is the love and what has happened to this world. (I certainly know no one of them will read my blog). Cruelty everywhere. Sometimes I hate to see or to hear or soon to suffer the cruelty, too :(

So, you, yes you who read this, lets pray for them. Don't you feel so sad watching videos and reading the news about them here in social media? Instead of just keep scrolling and skip the heartbreaking news, lets do them some favor. I feel so bad and so sad. Imagine to see your mother losing her legs but still alive and moaning in pain.

Can, not? :(

May Allah bless them, you and everyone.

Paling Chomel by Nana Ichigo